January 31, 2012

So far, so good!!

January has been a great month! I've been good to stick to my list of don'ts. Usually by now I've broken my resolutions. I have found that I said, "P I'm so proud of you" more often this month than I did all last year. I'm just determined to do better and live life even more loudly than usual. Of course there will be some crappy days, but I have learned to pull myself out of the dumps quicker.

Feeling so much lighter these days. I even joined a deep water aerobics class!! First day, I was terrified. The instructor put my flotation belt on me and said, "Now get in!" LOL! I got in but held firm to the side of the pool. The fear was so intense, I thought I was going to pass out. The other women in my class kept saying, "Just let go. The belt will keep you afloat." It took everything in me to move away from that wall. I refused to let my fear keep me from a great workout and trusted that I would not drown. Slowly I moved to the middle of the water in 13 feet. Luckily, the water from my splashing mixed with the tears falling from my eyes. Didn't want anyone to know that I got so emotional. They wouldn't understand how big a deal it was for me to be at that place, at that moment. That it was my first time ever in water that I couldn't stand in. I did it. I did it afraid. 

So one month down and 11 more to go...Let's get it!!

Sweet P

P.S. I challenge you to do something this year that fear has kept you hostage from. Step out on faith and don't look back. Now every time I get in the water I think, "What took me so long??"

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