But yesterday was different..

So yesterday I experienced my first earthquake. It was the freakiest thing to have the floor move under your feet and watch the building move. I didn't have too much damage to my home. Just some broken pictures and glass and objects all over the floor. Nothing that can't be easily fixed or repaired. I was more shaken up than anything. One thing that did occur to me is that in times of turmoil, you always know how important you are to some folks. I always sit back when there is a snowstorm or some major event and see who calls to check in on me. Whose mind do I happen to cross....Who cares whether or not I'm okay....Who wants to extend a helping hand...Usually, I'm that person for everyone else, but rarely am I on the receiving end. Usually its okay. I brush it off because there is a higher power who ALWAYS has His hands on me.

But yesterday was different...

I was already sad about the day. It was the day I lost him. The absolute saddest day of my life. The only topic that I can't really speak on because nothing but sorrow comes from it. Every year I just press through it and before you know it the sadness settles and the smile returns. Peace is restored and I move on. But like I said, yesterday was different...

Because I was already tender...when I reached out to everyone I knew to make sure they were all okay, I was depleted. The little strength I had, I gave to everyone else, so when those very few individuals that I hoped to hear from didn't even call...it kinda hurt more that it should have. I should be used to it by now huh? Naw, I'm human so some things penetrate passed my Superwoman exterior like kryptonite.

I do appreciate when people show me who they really are though. It helps me treasure those gold nugget friends that I do have and shows me who my gold-plated friends really are.

Very interesting....

*Sweet P*