OPERATION: Sexxy Size 6!!

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired over my weight! I know people are so over hearing me talk about it too, so today I'm done talking. Time for action!! This weekend, I tried on my Maid of Honor dress from this time last year and could not even get the zipper to touch. Horrifying how much weight I gained since then and its no ones fault but my own. I have this insatiable love for food and disdain for exercise. Bad combination!

All summer long I've had issues with wearing cute dresses and clothes because I hate the way my stomach pokes out of everything. I'm developing these unsightly hate-handles on my back (nothing about them screams love). My thick legs that I have had since I was a little haute-mama are now stubby tree trunks. Something has to give today!

Desperate times call for desperate measures, so I am starting a 30-day fast:

• No sweets.
• No fried foods.
• No soda or sugary drinks.
• No chips.
• No fast food.
• No bread.
• No pasta!! (tears)

I'm also going to be dating the gym. This on again off again, abusive relationship (me being the abuser) must end. It's funny because I read back to my posts about deep water aerobics and bootcamp and think wow that sure is an active and amazing woman! Where is she today?? SMH When I'm on it, I can't be stopped. But when I take a day off, it turns into a week and then a month. This pattern is so unhealthy.

My goal is to be a size 6. Haven't see that size since ...hmm....can't even remember when. It's going to be hard work, but I have "Perfect 10" potential and settle for being a "Cute 8" (and that's me being generous to myself). Time to look as sexxy as I feel in the inside.

OPERATION: Sexxy Size 6 in full effect!!

*Sweet P*

Since I been gone ...

Wow!! It's been ages since I've blogged. Head is spinning from all the happenings over the past few months. Okay let me catch you up...

1. Conference was a success, but it did not come without stress and tears. The good news is that when it ended, I left that job and started a new one!!! YAY!! Very happy with the transition. Less stress. Easy commute. Working with people I actually like. What more can a gal ask for?
2. I found out I'm gonna be an Auntie!!! My sis and brolove are having a baby girl. This lil chick is not even here yet and she is already loved to pieces. Looking forward to the new addition to our family.
3. I've been doing pretty good with my list of what I won't do in 2012. My list of "friends" has reduced for MY GOOD and I've even started a morning bootcamp to get my lazy butt moving. Still working on doing things afraid. Fear and I have been dating for such a long time, so there is some comfort and familiarity there. I'm working on letting go though. It's hard.
4. I started playing football again. Since the sib is preggers, I replaced her on the team. Season started well. I found my fight and played much better than I did 3 years ago. Even caught a ball in the game for the first time ever! We ended up winning the championship and it felt good to be an integral part of the team. I can't believe I'm saying this, but I actually look forward to the next season. Don't hold me to that though :-/
5. I reconnected with "My Brian." It's a friendship that has weathered so many storms. We are praying for a new heart for him soon. For now, just taking it day by day...
6. Last, but certainly not least, I have someone special in my life. He makes me smile on a daily basis. He makes me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world. He does silly, corny things that would once upon a time make me throw up in my mouth, but now make me gush like a high school girl. He's been such a beautiful surprise and the possibilities are endless. TO BE CONTINUED...

Right now, things are good. No complaints. Just haven't been in the mood to blog lately. I was on a mental break and it was fantabulous!! Now I'm back to my ramblings about nothingness that I know the world missed so, so much LOL

Sweet P

The power of P!

I'm here giving myself a pep talk as I prepare to take on my conference and I find myself saying, "You can do it P!" Made me laugh. I just love the letter P. I went from sweet pea (the flower of my birth month, April) to Sweet P to P for short. P is the first letter of my favorite color (pink) and the first letter of my favorite artist (Prince). Then there are so many wonderful P-words like powerful , precious, pretty, patience, praise and princess!!

Always thought my name didn't fit me, but tonight I'm thinking how could it be any other way??? I guess Phyllis is alright, but P....now that chick is Positively Phenomenal!!!

Okay I'm delirious LOL. Time for bed!! Good night and I'll holla after the conference.

Sweet P :o)

Just the beginning...

I've been so busy and haven't had a chance to blog the way I want to. SO MUCH is happening in my life right now and it's just the beginning...

I promise to catch up soon. Until then...Continue to be blessed!

Sweet P

So proud of P...

So today was the last day of my water aerobics class. I'm registering for the next session that starts next week. Back to back. No break! Who would have thought that I would stick it out this long. I even doubted myself, but each week I looked forward to the workout. Each week I have grown stronger. I grumble every Monday and Wednesday as I walk into the rec center, but by the time I get in that water and start moving around...all of that fades and the time flies by.

Today, she worked the heck out of us. I pushed extra hard though. My instructor who has been so hard on me these past 2 months said, "You've come a long way." She smiled with such pride. As I sit here now thinking about it, she is so right. I have come a LONG way....and I have an even longer way to go.

Looking forward to this next chapter of my life. With every page that I turn, I get more and more excited.

Sweep P

Happy Valentine's Day!!

Sending well wishes to all the true lovers in the world who don't care what day it is because everyday is Valentine's Day. May you continue to be blessed in your relationship. I wish you more laughter than tears. More joy than pain. More fun than fights. And above all...more love than your heart can hold. When that love spills over make sure that you spread it around to someone else who really needs a little in their life to pull them from the edge.

Today, I'm sharing my cup of love with the singles in the world who woke up dreading today. First be grateful for that breath you took this morning. Then shake that ish off. You are beautifully and wonderfully made. That's better than any candy or flowers you could get. I guarantee when Real Love finally comes you won't care what day it is just like those true lovers ;o)

Have a good day on purpose!

Sweet P

R.I.P. Whitney Houston

It is with a heavy heart that I write this post. When I heard that Whitney Houston had died, I hoped that it was a vicious rumor. She is the true definition of Legendary. I grew up with her music. I've cried to her songs; danced to her songs; and had a praise party to her songs. She has given us the gift of her voice for years and years and to say that she will be missed is simply an understatement.

Unfortunately, she has had a roller coaster of a life. The lesson to be learned here is that we must make better choices for ourselves. Healthy choices. It's not easy, but it's for our own good. In that interview she had a long time ago, most people remember her saying, "Crack is whack," but I remember her saying that the biggest devil is her. "I'm either my best freind or my worst enemy." I remember thinking how true that statement is. It is with tears that I can honestly say that I am my very own best friend.

I pray for Whitney's family, especially her daughter. That they try to find peace rather than understanding.

Such a tragic loss.

Here is my all time favorite song by the late, great Whitney Houston. It's my "I'm all that and even more than I even give myself credit for song." The freaky part is that she performed this at the Grammy's, which take place this evening.

May her soul FINALLY rest in eternal peace.

Sweet P

I so can't wait to meet him!!

India is one of my favorite artists. And it's one of those days, so I have her playing in the background while I tackle this pile of work on my desk. I have always loved this song. Heard it millions of times, but today feels like the first time. Her voice and the instrumentals have always lulled me with this tune, but today its the words that moved me. The man that she describes in this song sounds amazing. I'm tickled with hope....

The part about me playing him songs all through the night and him listening to every line and him choosing his words wisely when he knows good and daggone well I am wrong...Oh yes!!!

I so can't wait to meet him!!

*Sweet P*

So far, so good!!

January has been a great month! I've been good to stick to my list of don'ts. Usually by now I've broken my resolutions. I have found that I said, "P I'm so proud of you" more often this month than I did all last year. I'm just determined to do better and live life even more loudly than usual. Of course there will be some crappy days, but I have learned to pull myself out of the dumps quicker.

Feeling so much lighter these days. I even joined a deep water aerobics class!! First day, I was terrified. The instructor put my flotation belt on me and said, "Now get in!" LOL! I got in but held firm to the side of the pool. The fear was so intense, I thought I was going to pass out. The other women in my class kept saying, "Just let go. The belt will keep you afloat." It took everything in me to move away from that wall. I refused to let my fear keep me from a great workout and trusted that I would not drown. Slowly I moved to the middle of the water in 13 feet. Luckily, the water from my splashing mixed with the tears falling from my eyes. Didn't want anyone to know that I got so emotional. They wouldn't understand how big a deal it was for me to be at that place, at that moment. That it was my first time ever in water that I couldn't stand in. I did it. I did it afraid. 

So one month down and 11 more to go...Let's get it!!

Sweet P

P.S. I challenge you to do something this year that fear has kept you hostage from. Step out on faith and don't look back. Now every time I get in the water I think, "What took me so long??"

What I won't do in 2012...

Happy New Year!!

It has started off great! I went to watch night service on New Year's Eve and the message was about not going back and only moving forward in the new year. Nothing that I didn't already know, but it was confirmation of the promise that was already put forth in my spirit over the past month.

So year after year I come up with this list of things that I am going to do for the new year and year after year I fall short and disappoint myself. This year I decided rather than make a list of what I'm gonna do, why not make a list of what I won't do in 2012.

12 Things I Won't (and I mean won't) Do in 2012

1. I won't give 100% of myself to anyone or anything with a 0% return.

2. I won't allow negative thoughts to ruin my mood.

3. I won't neglect myself. Meaning: I will always take pride in my appearance and TRY to comb my hair every day of the week. (That's gonna be tough LOL)!

4. I won't give my precious time to unhealthy friendships. This should be easy because I left most of those folks in 2011.

5. I won't be irresponsible with my spending.

6. I won't allow fear to stop me from doing ANYTHING. Doing it afraid in 2012!

7.  I won't continue to be lazy. Time to get moving and keep it sexxy ;o)

8. I won't feel bad for being selfish at times.

9. I won't let someone else's actions or words take from my positive energy.

10. I won't have ANY regrets.

11. I won't stop smiling and laughing and having fun and being Silly P (She rocks!)

12. I won't settle for anything less than what I deserve.

Now this is a list that I promise myself to complete. Looking forward to a phenomenal year!

*Sweet P*