New me, New mindset...

Okay, so as you can see from my weight loss progress, I have lost 6 lbs! That means I've lost about 15 lbs overall since I started trying to get physically fit. This is supposed to be a good thing right...Well wrong! I just feel like I'm in the wrong body. I just don't feel like myself.

I think I've just been so okay with my lumps and bumps. Clothes are not as tight and I'm finally a true size 8, shoot almost a size 6! I know that this is what I was working so hard for, but I miss my curves. My sis and brolaw say I need to now build muscle and tone, but for me the cardio was easier to do. Something's gotta give...I'm sure that this may sound crazy to some who are struggling with weight loss. I mean a while ago, I would have never thought I would say, "I feel too small." I really need to change my mindset and refocus my attention on my overall health and wellness and stop paying attention to the number on the scale.

Lord, help me embrace this smaller, healthier me!!!

*Sweet P*

Happy 40th Birthday Tupac Amaru Shakur!

Wow! Time flies. Today Tupac would have been 40 years old. Gone waaaay too soon, but left a body of work that will live on for years. There was a lot of negativity associated with him and his death was not pretty, but he had a heart and a passion for shining a light on the injustices of this world. I will always respect his intentions in the upliftment (if that's even a word lol) of black people as a whole. 

Today let's not speak ill of him or focus our attention on some fool who claims to have shot him. Time to put it all in the past and toast it up to Tupac, who I am sure is partying for his birthday...

Proud of me!

As you can see from my weight counter, I have lost 3 lbs since I started incorporating eating healthier and working out consistently. YAY me! So far the only challenge has been trying to figure out what to eat and when. I have some pretty bad habits that I need to break and I am doing them slowly, but surely. I am not depriving myself of anything. I still have cookies, but maybe just 2. I still eat chips, but only half the bag. I still have a coke, but only 1 a week. Overall, by biggest achievement has been moving my body. I'm walking, I'm running, I'm going to zumba, I'm doing crunches, I'm no longer just sitting still and complaining about not liking the way my clothes fit. Even this Saturday, I really wanted to sleep in, but I pressed my way to my zumba class and had a great workout. I'm glad I went because weighing in was my reward for all the hard work I have done over the past couple months.

There will be bad days, but my mindset is different now. No more beating myself up about it. I will just make the next day better than the day before. YAY me!

*Sweet P*

Saluting my best friend: Stephanie George

Today is National Best Friend's Day and I want to take this time to recognize my best friend and sister, Stephanie George. There is no one in this world who knows me like she does. We are inseparable and my life would truly have been less bright without her. Just today we had one of those honest conversations that I know made us just a little bit closer, if that's even possible. LOL! I like when we can discuss stuff that doesn't feel too good and still smile in the end.

Next month, she will be marrying her other best friend, Will, and we will no longer be "The George Girls." *bbm sad face* However, the bond that we share is thick and nothing can penetrate it. Just gotta get used to pulling back a bit and I've been practicing that lately. LOL! This is the part of the story where new families begin and other pieces of the puzzle form. Looking forward to this new chapter and will treasure all the happy moments of the past.

So on National Best Friend's Day I honor my twin sister, my heart, my reason for living....Stephanie George! Love you like a fat kid loves cake ;-)

Happy Birthday Prince, my love!!!!

My Baby!!

Happy Birthday to my one and only Prince Rogers Nelson! Love me some him. If you know me well enough, you know that he holds a special place in my heart. Today, he gets special recognition and I've been playing his music all day. Here is my favorite Prince song of all time:

Let's Celebrate my 100th posting!!!!

Yesterday was my 100th blog posting! Wow!! 100 postings. 100 ramblings of Phyllis. 100 expressions of thoughts that spin through this single woman's head. Wow!! I have to say that I am so proud of me and how far I have come. I went from only being known as Sweet P and sharing my blog with a couple people to displaying pics of myself, using my real name, broadcasting my blog on Facebook and opening up to the world about stuff that I've never expressed out loud to anyone. That's growth!!

As we begin the half-year mark, I thought it was a good time to check in with my goals for 2011 and see how I have been doing. Like I told you I have a list of 11 things that I want to accomplish by the end of 2011. So far I have:

1. Had a romantic date. It was with Ike, but it still counts LOL!
2. Asked someone out on a date. Again with Ike, but counting it. I hope to ask someone else out soon though ;-)
3. Worn make-up!! That's major for me. I've never been one to do more than lip gloss and that I just started a couple years ago. Now when I go out sometimes I do eyeshadow, mascara, and lip gloss. YAY me!
4. Worn a mini dress!!! Now this was one of the hardest for me. I hate my knees. Don't ask. LOL! They just are not cute. This year I wanted to step out and show a little leg. (See picture) It took me all day to get the nerve to do it, but when I went out I felt pretty good. Looking at the picture makes my stomach turn, but I'm so proud that I got out of my comfort zone.

Well 4 goals down and 7 more to go! I'm feeling good. Even my sis keeps asking me, "Who are you?" HA!

*Sweet P*

Happy 85th Birthday Marilyn!!!!

June 1, 1926 - August 5, 1962

I'm so sorry I didn't get a chance to blog yesterday and acknowledge a woman who has helped shape me into who I am today. She's given me the strength to be the best me I can be regardless of what other people think. Her no nonsense attitude and love for herself was admirable. She died too soon at the young age of 36, but LIVED a full life. She is my #1 person dead or alive that I wish I could meet.

Happy 85th Birthday Marilyn Monroe!

Here are some of my favorite Marilyn quotes:

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." 

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

"I am good, but not an angel. I do sin, but I am not the devil. I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love."

"If you can make a girl laugh, you can make her do anything."

"If you're gonna be two-faced at least make one of them pretty."

"When it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, then I'm already better than them."

"The real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing your forehead or smiling into your eyes or just staring into space."

"It's better to be unhappy alone than unhappy with someone."

"Give a girl the right shoes, and she can conquer the world."

"Ever notice how 'What the hell' is always the right answer?"

"We should all start to live before we get too old. Fear is stupid. So are regrets." 

And my all-time favorite quote...

"This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up because if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about."

So funny because at this very moment in my life, I'm living the lesson she taught me in that last quote. Love you Marilyn and the world misses your presence. 

*Sweet P*